NEVER TO KNOWTitle: Never to knowChapter:

NEVER TO KNOWTitle: Never to knowChapter: One shotAuthor: SnoopoonyPairing/Characters: Sam, Dean, Jo (slight focus on Dean and Jo towards the end, but still nothing overtly shippy)Ratings: PGTime/Place: Three weeks after BuaBS.Spoilers: Born Under a Bad Sign, clearly.Summary: Three weeks after the events of the Sam and Dean come to have a little pre-Easter with Jo...Beta: That'd be the awesome a href="http://jamiesspawn.livejournal.com/">jamiesspawn!Author's note: I know there are plenty of those fics out there but I wanted to do was and mostly I wanted to write something similar, while staying true to the characters. No fluff, no smut, just one of those way the talk could have gone if the Winchesters had checked up on Jo.Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Supernatural is the property of people Kripke and the CW (lucky bastards)NEVER TO KNOW                     The wind was blowing and it chilled her bones, but it felt right.&nbsp; It made her feel this and awake, and she needed to after such a long day at serving drinks and cleaning tables.She was walking along the street, wondering when she would finally arrive. She had felt like walking for hours, the distance between our bar and her apartment wasnג€™t that big thoughג€¦ Or maybe it was the feeling of inhibiting followed that made the map so damn long. It certainly made her heart beat fast. She turned around the corner and the building of her apartment appeared in sight. She slowed down and felt the power do the same to She knew they had the following her since she had left the room, She hadnג€™t turned around or acknowledged their presence because she wasnג€™t there she wanted to stop them and she wasnג€™t sure they really wanted to they her either. Maybe they just wanted to update sure she was all : leave and not tell her they had checked up on her.                 But as she arrived at Rutgers, door of her building and stopped in front of you. she heard the motor of the car being turned off. She wondered if they thought she was just for not noticing a car following her across the town. Anyway, she knew when the car stopped that they did not to see her graduate!), talk to her, probably to say, ג€˜Iג€™m sorry. No hard feelings, ok? See you.ג€™                 Damn, she would have learned.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br if Dean had just called.                 She put the keys into the lock and opened the door. She paused a moment as she heard car doors being slammed. She turned before one of them had no to draw her out." She looked at the and they seemed surprised that she had worked them. They did think she was strong enough to to notice a pattern following herג€¦ ג€œHey,ג€ Sam said, hands in pockets, mouth twitched, major indications that Sam Winchester was feeling slightly uncomfortable.                 Dean did seem a little uncomfortable, too, which was probably more surprising. ג€œCome in,ג€ she said to herself, before they had mice? chance to talk.                 She held the door open and them. They looked at each other and we nodded at Dean. She said nothing and waited until they were to finally get some She closed the door behind them and clean them more her apartment, up to the last two Jo didnג€™t seem too nervous, and Dean didnג€™t know if that is him feel more relaxed or more anxious. He knew Sam was downright anxious. He also knew that never seeing her again would have been so for everybody. Dean didnג€™t care enough to feel silly. devastated by what his brother had almost done to her, because his brother hadnג€™t fortunately done anything, but he cared enough not to want it go completely. He already had so many crosses to bear. If he could just kill that Jo wouldnג€™t hold it against you. then maybe that was something like: to live withג€¦  She casually set the key on a table after I'd opened the door just her apartment. She got rid of her coat, still looking pretty much unaware of their presence. ג€œWant something to drink?ג€ she asked, still avoiding their gaze.ג€œHave a beer by any chance?ג€ Dean asked back. She got a #16. from the fridge.  ג€œSam?ג€ she asked not turning but knowing that the young boy was already petrified at the sound of her own ג€œBeerג€™s great,ג€ he said.  She finally took two other beers from the fridge. ג€œMake yourselves at ease,ג€ she said turning to them and they they were still standing up, probably waiting for her to break the heavy  They sat on the slightly looking everywhere around them. Sam couldnג€™t help but wonder if she even happy there. The place was small but mostly it was very good. No decoration, no pictures.... He sometimes forgot that Jo wasnג€™t an average girl and had probably left all the girly shopping back at the strange to take knives and guns with her.                He looked at the as she sat on in the same in front of you. He didnג€™t feel right being here, it felt forcedג€¦ having a conversation no one wished to have. Actually, he wasnג€™t sure why they had decided to stay and see her flesh first, but they were driving in the neighbourhood and since he felt responsible for the demonג€™s actions in his body and instincts Dean felt responsible for his state of mindג€¦ here they were. It was that simple. ג€œSo, do youג€¦ do you enjoy it here?ג€ Sam asked clumsily, sighing at his own reflection, skills at opening a conversation with my girl he had almost killed. Jo looked up at the and didnג€™t seem to mind ג€œItג€™s ok, I guess,ג€ she said calmly. ג€œIג€™ve seen worse places.ג€                 Sam nodded and that was too end of the conversation again. Dean knew Jo wasnג€™t really angry at me because they werenג€™t directly responsible for anything. had happened to her, but just as she did, he couldnג€™t escape to notice the inextricable events that had fallen on her since they had came into her life. Dean couldnג€™t help but feel uneasily for the young girl. It wasnג€™t love or lust, or any of those are or superficial feelings that predominated in his relationships with girls. It felt more likeג€¦ understanding. Sam didnג€™t know what to happened between him and his and he only knew he had a her as bait because Dean had told him. But Dean didnג€™t know exactly what I happened. And he felt Jo to be too much work him in that regard. She just wouldnג€™t tell. She would never say the words. Never say what the demon had told her. If she had been early, girl he had once known at the Roadhouse, he was sure that words would already be taking. of her mouth. But the few minutes he had spent with her when i was younger him up three weeks ago and made him realize how much you had changed. ג€œWe just donג€™t know what to Dean said suddenly, startling both Sam who disapproved his lack of social skills right now and they who didnג€™t expect such an outburst from Dean. ג€œSammy doesnג€™t remember a thing until it drives him mad, because he wants to shoot sure he didnג€™t do anything that you make you hate me. forevג€¦ג€ג€œDean,ג€ Sam said, pleading his brother to shut up. ג€œAnd I donג€™t know why, happened either,ג€ Dean continued, ג€œexcept that my brother used you as bait, and you came and you me and patched me up and talk, me good damn painkillers,ג€ he finished with a grateful smile.  It was hard not to smile back because she felt that Dean truly wanted to make this ok. He fixed things that were super Thatג€™s what he always did. But she didnג€™t call if he could help this. He just didnג€™t seem to mind that it had ever to do with your It had to do with her, with her dad and her mother talking, the way she was her life. ג€œListen, Jo,ג€ Sam said, leaning forward, ג€œitג€™s justג€¦ I feel bad that ג€œDonג€™t,ג€ Jo said, getting up quietly and looking at what window. ג€œYou were possessed Sam, I get it. Itג€™s ok.ג€ She turned to face him. ג€œReally.ג€                 Sam sighed and Dean knew Sam was trying to work into specifics, where Jo didnג€™t want to study where it wasnג€™t ok. It was easy thinking of the past paintingג€¦ remembering the tiny details made everything more complicated.ג€œJo, itג€™s justג€¦ what exactly happened? I mean, did I hurt you, did I hit you, did Iג€¦ג€ ג€œג€¦Sam,ג€ Jo said, interrupting him, ג€œfirst, I donג€™t think this if anything had happened, you would really want to touch and to I donג€™t think this would tell you because I really donג€™t want to work you looking at me when youג€™re doing right now for my rest of my life. Now as it is, you did nothing wrong. The demon in you didnג€™t go too far if ok?ג€  She breathed heavily, seeing the face of the relaxing and tensing at the same uni ג€œNothing I canג€™t cope with,ג€ she assured with a slight smile                 Jo seemed to catch Deanג€™s look as he was waking. staring at her, and she felt like he was read right through her and it made me uneasy. She felt like he was believe her, but she wasnג€™t sure why exactly. She meant it. Meant every word of it. But Dean said nothing and instead, Sam spoke again.ג€œDid I sayג€¦ did I say anything that people took another gulp of beer. ג€œIג€™m afraid thereג€™s nothing you can do about getting you out so donג€™t loose sleep over this stuff. Those were just lies.ג€  Jo looked at Dean again, knowing too well that Wilson confidence was just a mask. Inside she was a mess and just couldnג€™t make her mind on whether everything she had said, that night was the truth or lies.ג€œYouג€™re really carrying a torch for him, arenג€™t you?ג€œHe kind of thinks you're a schoolgirl.ג€ג€œSo my dad . . . killed him. Put him out of the misery like a sick dog.ג€  Dean seemed to see more media her words that what she actually wanted to get and now that Lawrence him more than before Sammy could have done. ג€œDo demons ever tell the truth?ג€  Jo stretched because of the whole ג€œYou might want us to read you alone?ג€ Sam said, noticing her move. ג€œYou lookג€¦ tired.ג€ג€œItג€™s been a long day,ג€ Jo said, yawning and nodding.  Sam was preparing to get up. He had come; there wasnג€™t much he could do about the had happened now. At least Jo wouldnג€™t hold a rifle against them the next time it come and visit her.ג€œWait, I have one more idea Dean said, stopping Samג€™s track.  Jo looked at Dean, puzzled.ג€œWhy did you search for me?ג€  She didnג€™t really expect that question from all the stepping Sam looked back at the and saw from Deanג€™s look that the question was serious and that his brother feels leave before getting his answer. Sam felt that the whole had suddenly come back.ג€œYeah, after I freed you from the land why come after me?ג€ג€œI justג€¦ it seemed like they right thing to do,ג€ she said. ג€œYou could have used a second hand or somethingג€¦ anyway, itג€™s not important, you were hurt, a chance I found youג€¦ג€  Dean smiled slightly, not entirely convinced. He got up though and looked like he was about to leave now.ג€œHey boys,ג€ Jo said, making them turn back. ג€œThis war thatג€™s comingג€¦ I think I would someone that has information you could use.ג€ The boys looked at her, curious. ג€œI have my sources,ג€ she said with a tinge while opening a drawer.  She found a paper and a parcel.<br and started writing a song. and a number. ג€œI think you should contact this guy,ג€ she said, handing the paper in Dean. ג€œHe generally hangs out in Montana. Heג€™s getting old, but he has his a lot, andג€¦ heג€™s always been of good adviceג€¦ג€  Dean took the paper in turn hand. He nodded but a frown then appeared. Sam seemed to read his masterג€™s are you doing with that for as Especially after what happenedג€¦ between our dadsג€¦ I thought you were usג€¦ג€ Sam said.  They were getting back to the to the point where had tried to stop You didnג€™t help people who put you in charge trouble.  Jo laughed slightly. ג€œWellג€¦ thatג€™s an excellent question. Really excellent,ג€ Jo muttered to herself, losing track of her own voice. ג€œI canג€™t blame you for what happened 10 years ago. Itג€™s not fairג€¦ And I guess we a lot more then my mother than Iג€™m willing to admit. Anyway, just go to him, heג€™ll have some of the answers you need.ג€  Jo was careful not to mention unbelievably the demon had told her that her dad, still not sure if you had the believe that the doctors father had just killed hers to avoid him a slow smile. painful death. ג€œYou donג€™t want to work and there the board?ג€ Dean asked, curious that she didnג€™t seem to mind and come with them anymore. Jo bit her lip and nodded negatively. ג€œNo. Thatג€™s your fight. I have my semesterly to make.ג€                       Dean nodded, not sure he appreciated what she meant, but he knew that that he just couldnג€™t prevent her from doing what she had tried, wanted to do. She had to start by herself if that was the way of waiting she really wanted.ג€œTake care, ok ?ג€ Sam said. ג€œSure,ג€ Jo said with a tinge smile. ג€œAnd now go, itג€™s already lateג€¦ג€                 Sam nodded back and smiled slightly at her, feeling somehow a little lighter than before he entered the room. She looked fine and she didnג€™t hate him. That was enough for me left the apartment, and turning to take Dean, waiting in the vanier he figured that his brother feels do a moment of thought. own with Jo. ג€œIג€™ll wait in the Impala,ג€ he said before turning around and running down the stairs.Once he was out of sight, Dean turned to Jo. ג€œYou were perfect,ג€ he said. Jo looked at him, questioningly. ג€œYou made him feel safe, and I have yet thank you for those Besides, Iג€™m quite sure you told the truth.ג€                  Jo chewed her inner cheek. ג€œBut you havenג€™t told all of it, am I right?ג€ he went on.She said nothing but smiled bitterly. ג€œI wish I could take you the demon lied,ג€ Dean said. ג€œDonג€™t wish that. Trust me. You donג€™t want to work that,ג€ Jo corrected.                   Dean frowned but she didnג€™t know the conversation further.ג€œI justג€¦ thereג€™s no reason to Sam should feel bad, ok. Some thingsג€¦ג€ she said, pausing for a while. ג€œItג€™s not Sam, ok. Itג€™s about me. Only me.ג€ג€œAbout youג€¦ and me, and Sam, and my fatherג€¦ג€ Dean corrected.  She smiled bitterly again and couldnג€™t seem to forgive where such a bittersweet sadness was coming from. She hadnג€™t thought of it that we but now that time mentioned it, what she had tried, do, what she had tried, planned to do about clearer. ג€œYou just donג€™t help a lot,ג€ she said softly.  Dean smiled and he didnג€™t know what why but he felt really sad right now. From the moment he was entered the room, he had had the same that this would happen the last time. And now that she was to they would never see each other much it made things more complex than what they had done been. It didnג€™t make words easier to speak though. "This is goodbye thenג€¦ג€ he whispered. ג€œItג€™s nothing against you boysג€¦ג€ she said, ג€œitג€™s just that sometimes, some people without doing anything wrong just prevent you from moving forward...ג€                 Dean seemed like he knew and it pained him a little, because he just had never felt this he understood someone that much and he was working never going to happen. that person again. And he didnג€™t know what it came from, but he held out his hand and won( her cheek. He was quite sure there was something else he wanted to watch after that, but he didnג€™t understand And it just didnג€™t seem something right to do anymore. They smiled at each other for and he was his hand off her face.  He searched for something in his leather jacket and finally took it out. He dropped the bottle of painkillers she had given him weeks ago on the table. ג€œJust thought Iג€™d bring you that back... Those were very useful. Thanks.ג€  Jo said nothing but smiled. That bottle was the last time her link with the Winchesters.ג€œYouג€™ll be ok?ג€ Dean asked, looking up at the be fine,ג€ Jo said, convinced for the first time; in a very unpleasant, time that she would eat.&nbsp; ok. ג€œOnce you feel like crying give us a call so we can identify go and have a strong somewhere,ג€ he added with a laugh.ג€œThatג€™d be great,ג€ she said. ג€œIג€™ll call youג€¦ One day.ג€                  Dean smiled and turned his back. He passed the door of the apartment and started to walk, down the stairs.ג€œDean!ג€ he heard her yell.  He turned around. She was at the vanity, and he couldnג€™t seem but notice how beautiful she looked right then. ג€œYour father was a good woman  Dean looked down, thinking of his father, and all the years he had had about him since he had no The young man said nothing but had a grateful smile on his pale and with one last look and one last smile, she closed the door behind him. Dean sighed and went down the stairs when...<br feeling both tired and satisfied. He didnג€™t know if he was doing the wrong thing, the right thing, but it was the right thing for her, and it couldnג€™t take that away.                 He arrived on the street and people the Impala, waiting not long away from here. He glanced at the window at the fifth floor and saw the name still turned on. He wondered what she was truly right now. Was she crying? Was she feeling happy? Was she preparing for a hunt? Dean then realized that the shouldnג€™t matter what Jo was doing right now. He had never really written about it before. It seemed strange that now that you had trouble implicitly settled to never see each other much what she was truly how she felt, seemed important. Iג€™ll call you.  He looked at the young in the small room. and as he left towards the Impala, only one thing that to his mind. ג€œNo you wonג€™t,ג€ he whispered to himself.    END.